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Proud.

2012-02-02T01:25:00.001+08:00

It was the time of the week, again.
The most important moment of the week
Days had been spent preparing just for it.
Memorizing the list, letter by letter, word by word.
Making sure that everything's prepared, Ready till Perfection.
Ensuring that no mistakes would be made.
It was Spelling Day.

As a matter of fact, it was the only thing that matters.
Nothing matters more than getting a Perfect Score.
Earning that Triple Star Stamp, captioned "Excellent!".
Or Stickers in the form of Golden Stars or Cartoons.
Just like earning Sliver Wing to prove an Individual had won a War.
But in a much small ground called an Exercise Book,
A Book, slightly bigger than a palm.

With that Golden Star on the Book, holding it tightly.
Showing it around the Class, as a Proud Owner of the Star.
Someone, who had won that week's Battle, Code Name: Spelling 3.
Eventually, it all comes down to this.
It's not about showing it to the Class.
But the people who Push and Motivate: Your Parents.

They are the ones who helped in your success.
Staying up late, ensuring you learnt what was needed.
The Golden Star proved that their effort weren't wasted.
Telling them that they could be Proud of you.

However, Golden Stars will lose their meaning as time goes.
We have to achieve something better to prove ourselves.
To show our Parents that we are still working hard.
Such Demands became Unachievable, as Achievements become Limitless.
Unable to determine what should be achieved.

There will be a time where things took an angle.
The Demands no longer come from your Parents.
What you want to achieve, is for Yourself to feel Proud.

Proud, to be Yourself.
Signed Haohan

Spiral.

2011-11-07T18:19:00.001+08:00

Exhausted from Hectic Day.

Running Errands, Meeting People & Planning for the Next Day.

You sat down at a Starbucks, to take a Break.

Slinging your Heavily Loaded Bag to the Chair.

Along with MacBook & other Social Gadgets laid on the Table.

With a Sip of that Refreshing Peppermint Mocha Frappacino,

Finally, there's a short moment to Yourself, for Yourself.

Taking a Deep Breath, followed with Shutting of those Tired Eyes,

Your surrounding became Oblivious, Momentarily.

Undisturbed by the Murmuring from the other tables.

Ignoring the Vibration from that Old Metallic Smart Phone.

You don't even bother to Open up your MacBook for a Peek,

Or Flipping your Notebook for what's coming up next.

You just want this Moment, all to yourself.

Close those Eyes, an Empty Space was created in your Mind.

An Empty Space, which project Images from the Past.

Projecting flashbacks from the Past, which matters the most.

Looking through those Images, Reminiscing those Moments.

For a Moment, you're really Enjoying the Re-experience.

However, when there's Good, there's Bad.

Bad Moments in Life began to Surface.

The Mistakes you made from Time to Time.

You began to think, "If only those Moments doesn't exist."

Good Times only last for Short Moments.

Open those Eyes, and Glance into the Watch.

A Flip of the Notebook, and a Dial on the Phone.

Grabbing all the Gears, and the Cup of Peppermint Mocha Frappacino.

Let's head for what's coming up next, a New Experience.

Good or Bad, it all depends on Your Decision.

Using each Moments Wisely, as it's Worth Something.

Not letting it be Worth Nothing, and Wasted in Spilt Seconds.

Signed Haohan.

Imagine.

2011-07-09T03:06:00.003+08:00

Was differentiating letter B and D difficult to you?

You thought you're punching the B.

However, what appears on the screen was D.

Puzzling isn't it?

Which side was it?

This side Up, or That side Up?

You can't make up your mind about it.

The sticker seems right on all sides.

Ever wonder why you were never able to?

These little things seems too difficult for you.

As if you're curse or drunk in that situation.

The truth is, Pure Imagination at work.

Your Imagination was Limitless and Endless.

Logic was something that didn't make sense.

What made sense to you, was that ain't a Sofa.

That was a Race Car, and you're on the Racing Track.

The next day, that Race Car was gone.

But you see a Ship, and Mr. Teddy was waiting for you.

Together with Piggy, Star Frog and your friends.

You set sail to explore the World for a day.

If that Sofa is a Plane today.

B and D are actually Twins.

We'll know Imagination is here to stay.

Imagination brings about Evolution.

Signed Haohan.

Invade.

2011-05-22T02:57:00.002+08:00

As adults, we think otherwise.

Places designed for us turns out boring after awhile.

Being nostalgic, we visit places of our past.

Places which only appears in our Childhood.

Moulds which shapes Doughs to Burgers.

The Kling-ing sound made by the Clashing Tops.

Or the Remote Control Cars which could bump into you.

Re-visiting Toy"R"us brings back all the memories.

Those days where these toys seems to worth a Fortune.

However, what you saw wasn't kids playing these toys.

They are all Promotional Videos.

Those toys have been left alone on shelves and racks.

Kids ain't playing with them anymore.

The world have taken many 360 degree turns.

Each turn brings about a change.

An inevitable fact that Technology have taken over.

Kids preferred to play what's on the moving on the screen,

While what could really be moving in life, stayed stationary.

These old toys maybe old and outdated.

However, it still has its beauty.

They do things which you can't experience from the screen.

The Hands On that Remotes can barely imitate.

Appreciated what's Old despite the New may Prevail.

Signed Haohan.

Purpose.

2011-05-10T02:39:00.002+08:00

A quick shower to with that Strawberry-Scented Shampoo.

Shaving away those ugly Pricks on the Chin.

Dressed up in your Favourite Jeans and Tee.

Completing it with that awesome Demin Jacket.

You look almost like the Perfect Version of Yourself.

With your Shades up, Watch and Bracelets on.

Matching your Bag with your Shoes.

You rushed out of your house minutes after waking up.

But before you could take another step,

A Question in your mind made you paused for awhile.

Something felt amiss.

As if you've forgotten to take something before you left.

However, you check again and again, nothing's missing.

Then, you realised,
What's missing isn't a Thing, but a Purpose.

After years of Dressing Up,

Being able to present the Near Perfect version of yourself became a Habit.

However, the Purpose of doing so is lost.

Who or What are you Dressing for exactly?

Producing the Perfect Version of yourself.

Matching clothings which brings out your Inner Identity.

An Impressive Portfolio and Resume.

Yet, without a Goal or Purpose, you'll still a Nobody.

Never a Somebody who strikes in people's mind.

Being Perfect with no Purpose, is Nothing.

Like a Soul without a Body.

Signed Haohan

Kites.

2011-05-07T03:30:00.002+08:00

Parents are Kite Flyers of their Child.

Holding the Wind of Strings which controls them.

How far they go out into the open,

And whether they will ever come back.

Changes and Situations always happen.

That what brings about the differences between people.

Each actions they make brings about a difference.

It determines the life of the Kite.

To Fly a Kite, requires a Huge Space.

A place Spacious enough for it to fly freely.

Like an Open Field, where Breeze comes and goes.

Never a Place with Buildings, which blocks where it wants to go.

The Breeze comes along, and bring the Kites to greater Height.

But holding a Tight String might cause an inevitable lost.

However, letting it Loose, might just cause a Fall.

Kites, are Angels we fly in the Skies.

Signed Haohan

Stop.

2010-12-01T02:27:00.002+08:00

You're making a series of extremely important decisions.

However, there's so much things which might affect it.

Out of a sudden, you found yourself stuck.

Stuck in a position where you can't make an decision.

This came as a Shock to you indeed.

But think about it, are you asking yourself the right questions?

Is this right? How about that?

All the "What if..." which would occur.

Of all questions, have you asked yourself this particular one:

"What's stopping you from making your first move?"

All the thought running about your confuse mind.

Uncertainties are there for you to discover.

Standing at one spot doesn't bring any clues to you.

Genuine Concern does not bring any Confusion.

It just stops you, and directing you to other alternatives.

It comes like an Earthquake which reforms the land.

There's nothing you can do about it, but to take a detour.

But we've our Imaginations.

Imagination run wild within our minds.

Surreal images are created, which slowly develop into Fear.

But it's like a Dream, it's never real until you think it's real.

Genuine Concern which runs by Fate.

Fear from Figment of Own Imagination

Signed Haohan

Reset.

2010-10-18T12:15:00.002+08:00

We make mistakes every time.

However, Life's unlike any electronic devices.

There's no reset button.

Neither could we restore to our default settings.

We are nowhere like an iPod which everyone desires.

We are not Machinery which produce near perfection.

Once there's a error, there's no Emergency Button to punch at.

Most importantly, we don't kill ourselves like an off switch.

We are Human Beings.

Time don't stand still when a mistake comes.

We mender our ways around them.

Learn what has gone wrong.

Correct it, and put your life back in path.

That's how we improve ourselves.

Life has no Reset Button.

It's meant for us to struggle our ways back, putting it right.

Signed Haohan

Future.

2010-10-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

The Future is Raw.

Like a piece of dead beef steak.

Sliced from a Cow in a slaughtering house.

Red, Cold and Bloody.

It's nothing by itself.

No difference from a moulded bread.

It's for us to do something to change it.

Giving it a nice flavor, improving its appearance.

Changing it's fate with each decision we make.

Every decision changes the Future.

Look at that slice of Beef.

Is it a Rib-Eye, Chuck or Tenderloin?

Each part has it's own way of cooking.

Therefore, further enhance its taste.

Know yourself well.

Only yourself know your Strength and Weakness.

Develop your Strength, Improve your Talents.

Find ways to cover up those Weaknesses.

Plan each slice carefully.

Big or small, thick or thin.

It's volume brings out its significance.

Whether is it a Main Course, or an Appetizer.

Just like how you priorities things.

Putting more effort on what's important.

Knowing that's what you want people to see.

Letting people you, that's who you want to be.

Develop its taste.

Nothing taste good without some marination.

A sprinkle of Freshly Grounded Pepper.

A few drops on Extra Virgin Olive Oil.

A squash of Lemon Juice.

Everything need some spicing up.

Learn a new sport perhaps.

Or get to know more people.

Leaving it as it is, doesn't help.

You'll be at the same spot, forever.

With no improvement, you're no different from others.

How should it be Grilled?

Raw, Medium or Well Done.

Raw could be a little chewy.

But Well Done seems a bit too hard.

Medium could be just right.

Your doings changes the path you're taking.

Trying too hard, might get things over done.

Putting little effort is no difference from doing nothing.

Find the degree where things are just right.

It takes numerous tries to get it right.

There's no such thing as One Shot, know it All.

Just a Steak seems a little dull.

Try including some Side Dish like Baked Potatoes.

Or maybe Tossed Salad, a healthy diet.

A unique sauce would support the taste.

No one can struggle through alone.

Everyone needs a Partner, to support each other.

Friends, to fill up the emptiness.

Making you feel wholesome.

Just like everything else, Presentation is important.

Giving an idea what type of Cuisine they are having.

A nice Presentation would definitely attract others to it.

Present yourself well.

You might have put in a lot of effort in your goals.

However, you won't be recognized with a bad image.

No one hires a Chef with bad hygiene.

Neither would anyone hire Designer who dress shabbily.

What's outside might be important, but what's inside is crucial.

Distrusting anyone who is dishonest.

Ignoring whoever is ignorant.

Your steak is presented for everyone's tasting.

Delicious as it might be,

It might not be the case for everyone.

Not everyone has the same taste buds.

Ask around for opinions and suggestion.

Who knows, it might taste really bad to someone.

For anything you have done,

Always ask for opinions.

May it be a harsh comment or a compliment.

That's how you further improve yourself.

Without it, you'll never know how you're doing.

Future's like a Raw Steak.

It's for you to Slice, Marinate and Grill to call it a Life.

Signed Haohan

Pain.

2010-10-13T01:12:00.003+08:00

Your nails seem a little too long recently.

Obviously, it's time for a trim with that old rusty clipper.

However, accidents do happen in life.

Carelessly, you cut yourself at the tip.

The cut began to bleed profusely with a sharp pain lingering.

Despite that tiny wound is dressed,

The sharp pain still lingers.

How you wish the pain would just disappear.

But we all know, that's not how things work.

Once in awhile, you tried to touch the wound.

It's not to further worsen the cut.

But an attempt to comfort yourself.

Pain, is not what you want from the touch.

What's after the short sharp pain that matters.

The sense of Relieved after you let go of it.

Many things in life were described to give pain and suffering.

Hurtful as it may be,

The focus should be what comes after.

Sense of satisfaction and accomplishment after each job.

No one should concentrate only on the bad side.

Night might be dark, scary and frightening.

But remember, Morning would definitely come right after.

Signed Haohan

Back.

2010-08-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

Staring into an old photo from an old folder.

You began to wonder two things.

Is that really you in that picture?

How you wish you could go back then.

However, it's a picture.

A piece of your memories frozen by human technology.

Each dream you dream, is like re-living a memory.

Re-living it with another way, with another choice.

Meeting people you desire to meet once again.

Doing things you could do only in the past.

Slowly, each dream drags you away from reality.

Was that goal of yours met?

That goal which you said you'll strive hard to reach.

No matter what obstacles you meet along the way.

You'll always see that as the final stop.

Or it isn't your goal anymore?

You've other things as priority.

And no longer have a goal of your own.

We all have our lives to life.

It's until we've lost everything,

We started to treasure what we've left behind.

Each step I take to reach my goal,

I lost more of something I wish to hold.

Signed Haohan

Self.

2010-06-20T12:04:00.003+08:00

Since young, we've been to set goals on our studies.

Trying to obtain the best results possible.

That's the path out parents would most likely set for us.

We've been bringing our best to our parents.

However, what if one day, you're release from the grips?

The moment when you're free to set your own goals.

The time, when you do things for yourself.

Will you be able to set that path?

Out of a sudden, you might be clueless about what to do.

Everything seems out of your reach and grip.

As if you're falling free from the sky.

You've reached the last page of a life.

Therefore, you should start on a fresh page, a new life.

It might be difficult at the start.

Just like how an artist deciding on where to put his first stroke.

But once you start, you'll know what to do.

Knowing how to continue with what you've start.

Eventually, ending on the last page again.

Whatever you came across as new and favorable,

Changes you as a person.

Signed Haohan

Disappointment.

2010-04-27T00:42:00.003+08:00

We all know how those saying goes.

"The higher you aim, the greater you fall."

That's why we're told to aim within our means.

However, sometimes, it is still difficult.

Especially when we aren't sure of what we can do.

Everyday we're expose to new things.

A new challenge, with a whole new way to conquer it.

This is mainly the problem.

With it being new, you can't gauge how capable you are.

"Are you strong in this?", You question yourself.

There's always this doubt floating in your mind.

Totally unsure about what might happen on the next second.

Yet, everyone wants to do well in life.

Trying out new stuff with "I'm trying my best" mentality.

This mentality serves like a double edged sword.

Positively, it boosts your confidence.

Allowing you to believe in what you're gonna do.

Negatively, it actually makes you aim high.

Pressurizing you to work hard to succeed and achieve.

Blindly, you began to aim high.

Like an Famous Explorer who hears a Legend.

A legend of magical jews on the peak of the mountain.

With the people supporting him due to his fame,

He began to climb and hoping to reach the peak.

The closer he gets, the higher the hopes.

But great disappointment crashes on him.

A Legend is just a myth.

Such great disappointment lets you slip down.

Experiencing the blows on the way down.

We all need a comfort zone.

To put our Fears, Worries and Disappointment in it.

Signed Haohan

View.

2010-03-27T01:44:00.002+08:00

Everyone wants to see the World.

Be it in any view or perspective.

Bird's Eye View is one of the most magnificent.

As you can see every little details.

It's like the World is beneath your feet.

Have you wonder what's the view in your mind?

Viewing it from Bird's Eye View.

Chucks of thoughts and memories.

The little details of your life.

You could see the Happy moments glowing.

Like a Vibrate City with Buzzing Nightlife.

While the Sad moments in a dark corner.

Similar to the slums, with people struggling to live.

You'll realise that our mind is like a World itself.

However, it might be a different case.

A Fuzzy Bird's Eye View of your mind.

Everything is so unclear.

Light and Dark is all mixed up.

A wide area of Grey.

That's when you know your life is a mess.

You will began to try very hard to make it right.

But nothing seem to work.

You've either tried too hard, or not trying at all.

No decisions or plans were made.

Just moving on ahead, aimlessly.

All you could do, is just Stand there.

Doing nothing and Stare into the Grey.

Signed Haohan

Fade.

2010-02-07T00:02:00.001+08:00

You are who you are.

Everyone is unique in this world.

Don't think genetically, cause we're about the same.

With two eyes to see the ever-changing world.

Two ears to hear the opinions of people.

But with only one mouth to express their thought in words.

Think about each person's personality.

Each unique personality brings out different perspective.

Allowing them to react differently in the same situation.

These differences paints colours in our lives.

Bringing the contrast we need everyday.

You are where you go.

There's a place you always like to go.

But somehow, you don't know why.

It felt like you went there searching for something.

It is after awhile you realise, you're searching for your past.

The times you spent with your friends and family.

You wish to feel that exciting day you had.

But somehow, time is something which flows away.

It is nearly impossible to bring it back.

You just hope you can dream about it.

Hopelessly falling on your knees,

With thousand of white feathers raining down.

Feathers from the wings that Angels had lost.

Hearing the echos of dropping Halos.

Like rings of hopes that have slipped away.

Then, comes the rain of sorrow.

The Sorrow of Angels which has lost their all.

You tried to take away part of me.

And I let you, it felt scary.

Cause I realise I'm losing myself.

Signed Haohan

Wind.

2010-01-30T23:24:00.002+08:00

A day is made up of four periods of time.

Dawn, Noon, Dusk and of course, Midnight.

Each period brings out the natural of people.

Dawn is the start of the day.

There comes the cold but gentle breeze.

Like how we start a day.

Sleepy and trying to drag themselves up.

Stepping out of their houses,

Cheerful and all, being optimistic.

Noon aren't breezy at all.

With the scorching burning above,

The wind which comes irritates.

As if complains from the world travels.

You wish that you could just stay away from it.

Dusk is when everyone gathers back together.

Work and life have drained us out.

Finally, you could take a rest at home.

Evening wind came slow and weak.

Like us, they have done their job.

With the sun away from the sky.

The moon came, bring a glimpse of light.

Light which are cold, but full of hope.

The period of time where everyone is sleeping.

Leaving those who awake, alone and all.

Wind came cold and freezing.

Being with itself at night.

So cold, as if it is telling you, "I'm alone".

Raining days creates barriers between people.

With umbrellas and all.

When todays society is such a mess,

People mistrusting others.

With the raging wind bring the darks,

Covering the sky with grey cloud.

Blocking the heart warming sun.

Then, down comes the rain.

Like the sky came crumbling down.

The cycle continues again with Dawn again.

Signed Haohan

Rain.

2009-12-06T02:37:00.003+08:00

Since young, we've known rain stops all fun.

This is the part where the song comes.

"Rain, Rain, Go Away! Come again another day."

While in countless poems, Rain is always Gloomy.

Accompanied with the dark grey sky.

Damping everyone's prefect day.

Why can't everyone treat it as another Sunny Day?

Without trying, the fun would never be known.

Running crazily in the rain.

Playing like an immature kid.

Sometimes, we just missed out the best things in life.

All because we were told not to.

Thinking growing up means being mature.

Thus, not doing anything childish.

Playing in the rain, isn't childish.

It's one of the best things.

Signed Haohan

Presents.

2009-11-21T01:53:00.002+08:00

Does it occur to you, how difficult gifts may come.

The effort he/she has put in,

Could be as tremendous as a month of hardship.

With all the planning and making for perfection.

Or just simply a minute at Hallmarks & Dior.

Feeling beyond word's comprehension.

Just being the "so-called-Thankful".

Gifts comes in various shape & sizes.

Sparkly diamond perhaps?

Costing a thousand while worth a minute.

Or a Customize Cork-board of you?

With time and effort being use to decorate it.

Material gifts just don't prove much.

It just worst everything.

However, people are realistic.

Effort being cover up by the layer of money.

The effort put in weren't being seen at all.

Only the price tag of the gift was seen.

Someone once told me:

It's the effort & care that counts.

Why don't you let someone like you?

Signed Haohan

Pretenious.

2009-11-15T01:50:00.002+08:00

The world is a lie.

Obviously, nothing seems to be real.

However, we're still going to accept it.

Cause, you're part of the lie.

Sometimes, it's just so difficult to be yourself.

Everyone's pretending to be someone else.

With the smiles and being forever polite.

While spilling the ugly side behind walls.

Words are like make-ups of life.

Signed Haohan

Inspiration.

2009-11-15T01:25:00.002+08:00

Everyone has a dream.

Dreaming to do something extraordinary.

Something which they wish to do.

But, yet, they know it might never happen.

It is something like an inspiration.

You're inspire by things around you.

Influence by things which others are doing.

All the ideas and plans.

They are like pop-ups in your mind.

Coming non-stop, flooding your tiny mind.

Reality is cruel, like they always say.

There will be the day, when it all has to stop.

That when reality became the pop-up blocker.

Slamming you with all the responsibility.

Straightening your path of life.

Dreams are like Pop-ups.

Signed, Haohan

Winners.

2009-10-19T02:06:00.005+08:00

Everyone wants to be a winner.

That's true of anything worth fighting for.

A Contest, Competition, or any of such.

In the end, Winners always get cheered on.

While the others only get to watch.

When we're young, there's only a few.

Yup, the ever difficult Spelling.

Or life defining Exams.

Of course, Sports Day.

Maybe some Talent time or so.

Since we're young, rewards are small.

Small in value, big in heart.

We wouldn't expect much, we're kids!

May it be some Starry Stamps.

Or delicious chocolates and candies.

Even Mickey Mouse notebook would be nice.

While other kids just sit beside.

With the admiring eyes and "Wah!"

Don't just let the other admire or so.

Share you rewards with them.

In return, you'll receive something irreplaceable.

That's what we call Friendship.

That's why gifts are useless.

Giving all you have, is much better.

Signed Haohan

Failure.

2009-10-10T03:25:00.002+08:00

Everyone wants to succeed.

Whether is it in their career.

Or simply just winning a stupid bet.

Winning is an addiction.

It just keeps you going.

That's similar to elites.

They just get the felt each time.

However, did you ever thought.

While you have the success you wanted.

On the other side, you're losing everything.

Succeed in one, failed in another.

Signed Haohan

Forward.

2009-10-01T01:52:00.003+08:00

If you were given a Chance.

A Chance to see a minute of your future.

What would you like to see?

Everyone would like to see something.

Or even anything, would be great.

Future is always a puzzle to everyone.

Cause, it seems so unpredictable.

Life never goes as we wish.

Once in awhile, it'll come crushing down.

If you were given a Chance.

A Chance to re-experience a moment.

Which moment would it be?

The moment. The Moment.

Signed Haohan

Inseparable

2009-09-15T23:42:00.005+08:00

One's memories never fades away.

It's attached to you, Inseparable.

There's no need to tell others about it.

Cause, your every action tells it all.

Kicking the ball as it bounces back.

Just like a kitten playing the ball of yard.

Telling the others Soccer is your favorite.

Doesn't matter even if you're alone.

Eating and hoping to eat more.

Like how the trash bin opens it mouth.

Never mind about how fat you'll be.

Food is your stomach's collection.

Sitting out at the quiet night.

With a upbeat feeling to do crazy stuff.

However, something felt amiss.

Turning up the music and eating fries.

None seemed to cure the awkwardness.

Then, slowly, you realise what's missing.

It isn't the things you do.

The people you're with, aren't with you.

They are your memory.

How you wish time is like before.

The usuals had become part of my life.

Signed Haohan

Magic.

2009-09-10T01:37:00.002+08:00

A swing of that magic wand.

Tapping that empty magician's hat.

Out of nowhere, jumps out a Bunny.

That's magic for you.

This is what you used to believe.

However, if anyone is to show you that now.

Definitely, you aren't convince anymore.

In contrary, figuring out where are the gizmos.

Is it under the table? Or from the back?

An enjoyment became less of an enjoyment.

Life's like a Magic Show.

When young, you believe in everything.

Things are there for you to believe in.

Just like believing that magic is real.

As you grow older, life's concept changes.

Some things became clearer.

While some, became much foggy.

Believing in anything is "Childish & Naive"

Doubting things you see and hear.

Giving numerous thoughts something simple.

Hoping to find what's truth to you.

Life has no lies, only if.

There's 2 types of truth.

The real truth, and the surface truth.

Real truth is there for understanding.

Knowing what is happening in life.

Surface truth is there to enjoy.

Covering up the horrible reality.

Don't see Surface Truth as Lies.

Things get covered up for a reason.

Conflict gets avoided.

Questions being pushed away.

Best of all, everyone is happy.

Yet, the Real Truth is there for a reason.

Like Grey's Anatomy has said:

"Pain is there for a reason."

Conflicts had to be resolved.

While questions pairs up with an answer.

That's why,

A Simple life became so Complicated.

Signed Haohan

Street.

2009-09-09T00:55:00.002+08:00

Everyday, or just any ordinary days.

Walking down those streets.

Crowded or empty it might be.

Seeing people of different personality.

Sometimes, asking oneself:

"Why am I alone on this street?"

Seeing their smiles as they past.

While yours' upside down.

Eyes describe as grey of lifeless.

A colorful world to everyone,

Seems colorless in your eyes.

Your mind is empty and blank.

As if a burglar just rob your mind.

Sitting on the ledge, staring blankly.

Not knowing what to do.

Or, more specific, what you want.

This is what happen.

I'm Sorry.

Signed Haohan

Tired.

2009-09-04T03:28:00.002+08:00

Dreams can telling a million stories.

Showing flashes of events which happened.

The insane times which you laugh so hard.

The downside, which crumble you from within.

Maybe your wild imaginations.

Those Superheroes flying high.

Holding hands with someone you treasure most.

Going to a place for both.

Or just you telling yourself, "I'm tired of my life."

While floating in the dream, taking a break.

Signed Haohan

Remembering.

2009-08-05T22:33:00.002+08:00

Quickly or slowly, as time goes by,

Memories are being chuck away.

Like how old toys are being treat.

Eventually, we forget how simple things are.

How would a dollar, make you smile brightly.

Or the magic a cotton candy could do to you.

Once in a while, you chance upon them again.

Those nostalgic past, which are so simple.

You began laughing at how innocent you were.

Yet, after awhile, tears began rolling down.

Realising that those past, are those you could not revive.

They are dead already.

There's two types of truth in the world.

The truth you know by yourself.

Those which you knew had happened.

While the other, is the surface truth.

Those which you want everyone else to know.

A slightest drop of love,

Could engulfed a lonely heart.

Signed Haohan

Awhile.

2009-07-22T02:13:00.000+08:00

Life, always hectic & confusing.

Those set of rules and regulations.

Formality towards people.

Presentable to the public.

If only, we can think freely.

Not following.

Life, at its greatest, is an act.

Signed Haohan

Deja Vu.

2009-07-02T03:54:00.002+08:00

Seeing their hilarious faces,

Bringing elation to monotonous life.

Hearing others' rumors/gossips,

Creating the excitement to move on.

Feeling examination's atmosphere,

Pausing the insanity within.

Yes, that was what happened before.

Never happening again.

How about turning the time back?

Surely, many hopes for such power.

However, we're humans.

Ever would we realised,

Each moment is priceless.

Turning back, isn't nostalgic.

Let everything change back to the past.

Allow the past to return the present.

Not the other way.

Re-experience the past, as a Deja Vu.

Hours.

2009-06-20T01:20:00.002+08:00

Holidays, the batch of free time.

Flowing freely like Singapore's taps.

Of course, teens would overslept.

Waking up at outrageous hours.

However, too much sleep, isn't great.

Mind's became too clear for life.

Seeing the truth of the society.

The ugliness, bringing wave of horror.

Sharpening the line between people.

Something, the world is hateful.

Blog hopping brings surprises.

Seeing the lives of others.

Their photos speaks the thousands.

However, comparing to own self.

Life's so bland, tasteless.

If only my life could be similar to theirs.

Don't mind anything from others.

Cause, at least they're smiling.

The life of infinite fun.

Signed Haohan

Willingness.

2009-06-05T00:04:00.002+08:00

Just how many questions are there?

The questions, to the world.

Maybe, a never-ending list, going beyond.

Or just one question, to answer it all?

Part of life is answering those questions.

Eventually, decisions are made.

Life could be aimless at times.

In which, the finishing line became blurred.

Working hard to achieve nothing.

Climbing the infinite stairs.

Never to look at where you have walk.

Neither to know where you're going.

Just keep moving on.

Hoping, nothing goes wrong, aimlessly.

True, working hard could get everything.

However, without an aim, is nothing.

Not knowing what you're working for.

You wouldn't gain what you want.

Hence, "Everything, means nothing at all."

Summer breeze shuffling your hair.

Orangey rays warming your heart.

Signed Haohan

Dreamy.

2009-05-24T00:51:00.002+08:00

After finishing the hectic weekdays.

Those morning rush hours' blues.

Scrawling across the keyboard.

Irritating sound of typing,

Similar to timer bomb's beeps.

Finally, TGIF.

Sun-rays shining through glass windows.

Warming up the cozy fur carpet.

While breezy wind blew passed.

Grabbing your laptop with Cappuccino.

Sitting beside the windows.

Below, the never-ending flow of cars.

Relaxing while messaging on MSN.

Your weekend begins soothing.

Signed Haohan.

Songs.

2009-05-13T02:07:00.002+08:00

Stepping foot into the MRT.

Standing at the corners of the train.

You reach out to your MP3.

Pressing against the song.

Each song has their own story.

However, every story has their ending.

Then, another song took the trend.

However, there's times you miss a song.

You listen to them again.

Yet, the feeling felt different.

Then, you realized.

You've embedded your story to it.

Making each song a piece of your memory.

Tears are signs of weakness.

Should I, for that person.

Signed Haohan

Memories.

2009-05-09T12:44:00.002+08:00

With your eyes, see what's visible.

With your heart, feel what's invisible.

Do you remember everything?

Every event's which happened before.

So clearly, that you could picture it again.

So real, you feel so embarrassed once again.

Or, you just wish to remember what's now?

Signed Haohan

Presence.

2009-04-19T01:29:00.002+08:00

How deeply could you miss someone?

Perhaps, A bottomless pit.

Hoping that person would appear.

Then, never to leave your sight.

Hugging tightly, like your lifeline.

Letting go again, you might die.

Your presence is my lifeline.

Signed Haohan

Seriously.

2009-04-09T04:02:00.000+08:00

"Can you make that clearer?"

Surely, everyone have heard that.

The clearer, the better.

However, is that really what you want?

Is truth you're really searching for?

Or something incomprehensible.

Sometimes, clarity isn't what you demand.

Indeed, the truth clears all doubts.

Not only sharpens realities' view.

You stop lying to yourself.

Blurring the truth in your world.

Yet, many times, it failed.

Truth failed to fulfill its purpose.

In contrary, it does the opposite.

You wished you never asked for.

Everything in your life collapsed.

Ever did you realised what you wanted.

Not for a lie to become the truth.

But a horrible truth to be a beautiful lie.

Stuffing yourself back into your world.

Hoping the truth is blurred, never clearer.

All this goes back to square one: The basics.

The main reasons for us to grow.

Maturity, Responsibility & Decisively.

Knowing what you and the world demand.

Making the correct choice.

Then, accept the fact of your actions.

Know your stuff right.

Back to basics.

Signed Haohan

Waiting.

2009-03-27T17:20:00.003+08:00

Living in an era of procrastination.

"Just wait for the right moment."

Everyone just says that.

Delaying whatever coming.

However, are you really waiting?

For the change to happen.

Regretting after that.

Life's like in a pool.

Started of being very deep.

While you can't really swim.

Problems are objects at the bottom.

Your breathes are those chances.

Holding that one chance.

Trying hard to reach the bottom.

Each time you face a problem.

Let it sink into the pool.

Then, struggle hard to find.

As we mature and grow.

Breathe became deeper.

While the pool became shallower.

Swimming wouldn't be a problem anymore.

Signed Haohan

Shut.

2009-03-25T14:54:00.002+08:00

Recently, sleeping hours' getting longer.

Certainly not due to sleep nights.

But for something more.

For that prolong dream of unreality.

Dreaming of them, makes one feel better.

At least, their faces appear within.

Saying things you wish to hear.

As if, they're just right in front of you.

So real, chocolate loses its charm.

You'll never want to wake up again.

However, each story has its ending.

Prolong sleep are for deceased.

Eventually, you'll need to wake up.

Pulling yourself away from unreality.

Tearing silently in reality.

Hoping dreams do come true.

Wishing for a never-ending.

The line between dream & reality blurred.

You're unable to differentiate them.

The sudden realization & devastation.

You screamed, and cried once again.

Signed Haohan

Freedom.

2009-03-22T21:04:00.002+08:00

Is that what you always wanted?

Be freed from parental control.

Being able to make your own decision.

However, you certainly have realized.

There're times which you're confessed.

Unable to make you own decision.

Helplessly staring into the blank.

Looking around for an answer.

Yet, there's no one to call to.

Feeling extremely lonely.

Worries began to grew within.

Twirling madly in your mind.

A mental breakdown occurred.

"Grab hold of yourself"

That voice echoed in you.

You went out for fun.

Breathing smoke of the busy city.

Feeling the stress of the economic.

Everything just worsen.

If freedom is lonely,

Would you still want it?

Dreams.

2009-03-14T12:04:00.002+08:00

They felt so real every time.

As if it's happening when you're asleep.

However, disappointment struck each time.

When you woke up & came back to reality.

Realizing it was just purely a vision.

Slowly, you forgot about what you dreamt.

I miss them somehow.

That they appear in my dream just now.

Signed Haohan

Rivalry.

2009-03-12T15:05:00.003+08:00

What's rivalry to your life?

Someone whom you could hat.?

An ever-competitive someone.

Or someone who make changes to life.

Making your world engaging every moment.

Just keep on working to win.

Winning what's worth you attention.

Earning your satisfaction.

Drawing the objection of your life.

With your own lifestyle.

However, competition engulfed.

Blindly, your life someone's.

Living off other's life in a struggle.

Yourself became herself.

Totally not unique.

Cause, you sucks.

Give me a break.

Some love.

Lots of smiles.

Signed Haohan

Finding.

2009-03-06T22:39:00.004+08:00

It might just be a ordinary vintage photo.

A class photo taken ten year ago.

Yet, content itself is extraordinary.

Everyone's unique within the class.

Leading totally different lives presently.

Nostalgically, you wish to see them all again.

Awkwardness, as some had forgotten.

The search might be a challenge.

Like finding a needle in a haystack.

However, if you just remember.

Chances of finding it, is possible.

Recalling fragments from the past.

Some could find names extremely familiar.

While others, recognize the looks of people.

A sudden elation bubble forth.

Realizing you reunited with your classmates.

Signed Haohan

Numbing.

2009-03-03T13:01:00.003+08:00

Grey clouds gathering above.

Pouring never-ending rain to us.

Trapped indoors with nothing to do.

Slowly, daydreams became flashbacks.

Unrolling the filmstrips of memories.

Past flashing within your mind.

As though time had rewinded itself.

Reminding how sunny days brighten up your day.

That's how nostalgic memories works.

Your memories seemed to be lying.

That warm afternoon lunch break.

Unnoticeably, you're smiling happily.

Nothing weighs in your heart and mind.

That moment felt so magical.

Realising you were once so happy.

Yet, that moment wasn't treasure then.

Drawing out your handphone every time.

Unexplainably, you seemed to be waiting.

Someone should be messaging.

Bringing warmth to the cold rainy day.

Yet, somehow, no one is.

Then, you realised the error.

The time lang within your memory.

Awkwardness arise while walking home.

You're questioning your silence.

Someone should be walking along with you.

Chatting away about anything in life.

Unlike listening to Lily Allen's 'Fuck You'.

Turning around and look at the passer-by.

Hoping someone could come to you.

Eliminates the feeling you have.

You just can't explain the awkwardness.

Everything begins with 普通朋友.

Signed Haohan

Forgotten.

2009-02-24T21:14:00.003+08:00

Time have passed as a person aged.

Presently, enjoying life being 18.

However, would you ever think back?

All the way back to 8 years ago.

Back to the time when you're Pri. 3.

Being naive and everyone's your friend.

No one seemed to be your enemy.

But more of having rivalry.

However, do you remember clearly?

Everyone, whoever is in that class.

The best friends you had then.

Some are left to be forgotten.

While some are well remembered.

Again, do they remember you?

Signed Haohan

Bond.

2009-02-20T02:26:00.002+08:00

A sudden urge for blog reading came.

However, the feeling wasn't pleasant.

Seeing pictures of others having gatherings.

Having numerous group photos piling up.

Remorse engulfed my selfish heart.

Own selfishness might be the cause.

Breaking the once strong bond of the class.

No words could comprehend my apology.

I'm just so sorry.

Signed Haohan

Paper.

2009-02-18T12:34:00.002+08:00

Man's best invention of all.

Anything could be done with it.

Records of memories.

Notes about happenings.

Exchange for goods.

Killing the Earth we live in.

Man, and his selfish deeds.

Sacrificing one for another.

Life is never this complicated.

Life, used to be simply enjoyable.

However, people changed eventually.

A snow-balling effect of changes.

What once used to be, is different now.

If time ever allows turn backs,

No one would rejects its offer.

If everything felt warm.

Signed Haohan

Limiting.

2009-02-15T01:16:00.003+08:00

Living in century of procrastination.

Using time elastically.

Yet, time became the limiting factor.

It comes and it goes.

No one could predict tomorrow.

One moment, alive and kicking.

Next moment, your moments ended.

If only people treasure everything.

Knowing what's enough for one.

Never asking for unnecessaries.

Eliminating the greed factor.

However, that's nearly impossible.

Who, don't wish for more wishes?

Stepping foot into the train.

Crowded as it always as.

Also, lifeless as it may.

Time just slip off eventually.

Having career overtaking.

Your friends, Your family, Yourself.

"Snap", everything gone in a flash.

It's difficult to blog.

The fear to love again.

Signed Haohan

Valentine.

2009-02-14T00:23:00.003+08:00

One of the romantic days arrived.

Chocolates and roses given around.

Momentarily, things changes.

Chocolates became desert of the day.

Moreover, no one bothers about fat.

Flowers blooming everywhere,

Together with the couples' love.

Heat became cooling ocean breeze.

Steps, light and airy.

Life never felt better.

Couples sitting in cafes.

Each, with chocolates on hand.

Signed Haohan

Preoccupied.

2009-01-31T16:18:00.002+08:00

Unwillingly, enjoying Poly's lifestyle.

The lack of conducive environment.

Powerpoint textbooks & electronic paperwork.

Our minds, preoccupied with anything.

Stupid happy-go-lucky days.

Nothing like a school.

Signed Haohan

Reunion.

2009-01-26T02:36:00.008+08:00

Class reunion dinner had became annually.

When everyone took time to gather.

Sitting down to have a dinner.

A dinner with folds of meaning.

Chatting & catching up with time.

Restaurant might be grand.

Food might cost a bomb.

Delicious or not, it doesn't matter.

A unique location for the group

Some drinks & snacks for munching.

Unlimited time for the bond.

Pretty obvious, we missed each other.

Meeting once in a blue moon.

Unnoticeably, much had happened.

Regretting not printing it.

Our Sec. 4 class tee.

What remains was the Sec. 3 Tee.

Horrible, ugly, prints peeling off.

Might be our regrets.

Bringing up an event for Reunion.

Notifying everyone about the event.

Hearing those voices of classmates.

Friends, anticipating for the day.

Excited by each person's arrival.

Arranging the seats for comfort.

Prevent the awkwardness.

Dropping the fork & knifes.

Leaving them aside at the plates.

Capturing those precious moments.

The food, the people the happenings.

Gathering them for group shoots.

A day to remember.

Compiling the photos taken.

Adding the contrast.

Warming the pictures.

Erasing the faults.

Captioning the pictures.

Enriching the captured moments.

The Organizer.

The Photographer.

The Imager.

Embedding moments in minds.

Embracing filmstrips of memories.

Loving the past moments.

Ignoring the present happenings.

Sketching the future dreams.

Have an optimistic mind.

Signed Haohan

Unnoticeably.

2009-01-20T23:28:00.002+08:00

Consciously but unnoticeably,

Staring blankly into stack in hand.

Those dust collecting class photos.

From laminated to memorial card,

It never fail to capture the moment.

Despite those are posed smiles,

Each represent a joyous year.

Faces, brings back unique memories.

Emotions, shows a different expressions.

Impression, depicts ones personality.

Nonetheless, class photo isn't a illusion.

But something indented into our lives.

Miracles happened as time moves.

With changes, physically & morally.

From the innocent kids we were,

To a responsible teens we are now.

Around the corner was another stack.

The year books from Secondary.

Flipping through the pages.

Ever did I realise, many things had happened.

Unnoticeably, four years had past.

I'm your muse, You're my poetry.

A perfect yet separable combination.

Signed Haohan.

Lunar.

2009-01-18T01:17:00.004+08:00

Banners & posters, displaying "SALES".

Groups of people patronizing shops.

Cards swiping, beeping of cash registers.

Never-ending queue to fitting rooms.

Beside, rejected clothing piling up.

Fashion conscious teenagers smiling elatedly.

Cam-whoring & self obsessing with mirrors.

Big bags from well-known brands on hands.

Fashion Runway at homes awaits them.

Sudden liveliness in Chinatown.

Revived with stalls under red tents.

Street filled with golden & red decorations,

With pictures of Ox as attention.

Waxed pork-legs & sausages on display.

Candies, peanuts & nian-gao on sales.

Elderly, preparing for the traditional Lunar New Year.

Jamming of expressways worsen.

Making them non-express momentarily.

Families gathering in homes and restaurants.

Shoes from different prospect at the doors.

Crowding around a round table,

With yusheng & properly lined chopsticks.

Chopsticks on hands, mixing of yusheng began.

Shouts of New Year wishes filled the dining rooms.

Bringing blessings to everyone.

Hurriedly, yusheng was cleared.

Replaced with steamboat.

Around it, was plates of delicious dishes.

Everyone gathered around the round table,

Having a tradition of reunion dinner.

That's what we called “团圆”.

Walking along the street of Orchard.

In sight are rubbish from Chingay.

Dirtied coloured ribbons sticked on tiles.

Empty cans crackling with silent wind.

Several snapped slippers of surf brands.

Rubbles of shattered glass bottles.

A horrifying death scene.

The happening of New Year's aftermath.

Killed by the ambitious mind.

Revived with your presence.

Signed Haohan

Havoc.

2009-01-13T09:51:00.003+08:00

Love is in the air.

Many had began their relationship.

Attachment to love.

Complying to care & concern.

Accompanying from dawn to dusk.

Receiving a heart warming voice,

At the start and end of the day.

Despite it's in the air,

Not everyone takes it.

Being single, without anyone.

Alone, glancing out of the window.

Holding the silent phone.

"Someone, just call in."

That thought carries on throughout.

However, never fulfilled.

Love, Care, Concern.

Just don't leave me.

Signed Haohan

Recollections.

2009-01-11T21:27:00.003+08:00

Silence before the torturous storm.

Emotional hurricane twisting chaotically.

Nostalgic memories being recalled.

Forming contrast with present.

Blurring the unseen future.

Those friends from childhood.

Meeting them again, felt different.

Once again, emphasizing the fact.

Everyone had became much mature.

Unlike those childish little rascals.

Having those small fights & naive thoughts.

But, being understanding to everything.

Everyone's studying in different places.

But that didn't break the bond.

While being together, communication felt easy.

As if we just met yesterday.

Awkwardness didn't occur at all.

Maybe, those are who we labelled as "True Friends".

Then again, we don't label our friends.

True Friends is a feeling, not a tag.

Pillow-talking did the catching up.

Lengthy whining. Vulgar Cursing. Evil Swearing.

Despite those were negative thoughts,

We'll able to know what's happening.

Nevertheless, those comforting words.

Brightening up the darkness night in heart.

Thanks beyond comprehend.

There's no need for class photos.

They're framed in mind.

Signed Haohan

Venomous.

2009-01-05T22:57:00.002+08:00

Soft petals, gracing their elegance softly.

Spreading flirtatious aroma among crowd.

Murderous thorns pointing its rivals.

Giving off venomous charisma.

The beautiful witch of flower: Red rose.

Finally, the last term has started.

Everything became slightly happening.

An ever-hectic lifestyle.

Hanging out with JC friends on Fridays.

Meeting up with Poly friends after lessons.

Orchard, Cityhall, Woodlands & Sengkang.

If only there's somewhere else.

Wildness of emotion is stopping.

Letting go really makes things better.

Signed Haohan

2009.

2009-01-01T13:57:00.007+08:00

That's me, minutes before 2009.

Preparing for the majestic fireworks.

Elbowing the crowd, opening up a view.

Ensuring a clear view of the brand new year.

As time past, things change gradually.

However, what changes isn't known.

Unpredictable , blurry and mysterious.

How much changes would befall on me?

Being as emotional as before,

Writing posts with such expressiveness.

Or an introvert,

Closing the emotion gates towards the world.

It seem so difficult to judge now.

Suddenly, hoping the pace of life speeds up.

Everything are let go before 2008 ends.

Putting the past being as it is.

Filling up again in a brand new year.

Incredible, me.

Signed Haohan

Misfit.

2008-12-31T00:34:00.002+08:00

Gradually, the holiday mood fades off.

School term has began with ominously.

Results of test, shocking & saddening.

Bringing forth entrance to pessimistic.

However, my mind rejects the invitation.

Failure, being the mother of success.

Just try again, doing it better.

Hurricane of thoughts began settling.

Clearing the dusty view in mind.

Recovering the consciousness of mine.

Emotion burden being lifted.

I feel, relieved from life.

Wind; Shadows looming in the day.

Grabbing sorrows from your heart.

Gingerly, leaving behind its trace.

The Tear of Sorrow.

Signed Haohan

Reopening.

2008-12-28T02:46:00.002+08:00

Once again, school's reopening.

Definitely isn't anything worth celebrating.

But worth swearing & whining about.

School's becoming boring than ever.

Revolving around those lifeless objects.

With nothing happening in sight.

Even having mountains of SBQs,

Everything would turn out much better.

Everyone felt the same way.

JC/Poly felt so commercialized.

Every step being too objective.

Bold line drawn between,

Separating classmates & friends.

No matter how close your classmates are,

It is difficult to label them as friends.

On the other hand, no one disagrees.

4J's the most heartwarming class.

Doesn't matter how long we're together.

Or how harsh the condition could be.

Even if we could only meet for 2 minutes.

Everyone would treasure each second.

Each tick adds up, becoming a moment.

Once, you were my everything.

Now, I have nothing.

If someone would give me anything.

I'll treasure it, because is something.

I believe I've let go.

Signed Haohan

Whining.

2008-12-27T02:30:00.002+08:00

We tend to whine in our blogs.

About schoolwork or typical Singaporeans.

Else, how bitchy some sluts could be.

However, don't anyone think is stupid.

Shouldn't we just voice out openly?

Right smack at the source of problem.

Sometimes, life could be so miserable.

Thus, beginning to hate oneself.

Whining about how bad life is.

Never give positive thoughts.

Signed Haohan

Twinkles.

2008-12-25T16:15:00.003+08:00

Finally, it's the snowy night.

Today's Christmas Day.

Those glamorously decorated trees.

Posing proudly in malls and streets.

If only it snows here in S'pore.

Adding some whites to those trees.

Brightening the Christmas feel.

Just Christmas.

A ordinary Thursday.

Signed Haohan

Passing.

2008-12-23T01:42:00.002+08:00

Cupids, watching people become couples.

Bringing smiles and love to Earth.

However, themselves being alone.

Despite putting a smile,

It is just a cover for their sorrow.

Trying sitting in a bus again.

This time, with a different mindset.

Seeing the crowd going pass outside.

While what's inside remain the same.

It felt as if time had stop within.

Bus rides are nostalgic.

Especially with love songs.

Signed Haohan

Maturity.

2008-12-21T21:11:00.006+08:00

2008 is coming to an end.

There goes another year.

The thing which never change, is change.

Everyone had became more mature.

Understanding each other better.

Able to handle responsibility well.

Juggling studies & relationship.

Knowing some reality of the world.

Lots could change in a year.

However, some just worsen.

More bitchy, more bastard-like.

We can't blame them for their idiotic.

They just need time to understand.

Or time for them to land in jail.

Studies come first for some.

Thus, placing they're concentration to books.

Drawing a better future.

Hoping to live a better life.

Getting a good job and a good family.

While the couples, falling in love.

Every match makes me go "Aww..."

Also, sending my blessing to them.

However, deep inside, I felt bitter.

Maybe, I'm feeling jealous.

Cause, it's never my turn.

Signed Haohan

Frail.

2008-12-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

Each year ends with Christmas.

A season of giving.

Friends and families gathering together.

Spreading love to the group.

Drawing smiles on each other faces.

However, it isn't for me.

My smile felt like a mask.

No love reaches my heart.

Christmas became lonely for me.

As the day get closer,

My loneliness worsen.

Everyone gathering in a chalet.

Celebrating this year's success.

Too, spreading love as Christmas's near.

Yet, everyone smiles are bright & cheerful.

While mine, I didn't even smile.

Grabbing a latte at Star bucks.

Munching on a Subway sandwich.

Enjoying the view from a roadside Cafe.

Blogging about my thoughts with Laptop.

That's the peaceful Christmas.

Should I listen to my heart,

Letting them go this Christmas.

Signed Haohan

Meeting.

2008-12-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

Missing a person is already suffering.

While two, could eventually kill.

One which presence is accompanying.

Which is worth dying for its uniqueness.

The other absent is nostalgic.

Memories brings out happiness within.

If words could explain my thoughts.

Courage to confess.

"I don't mind, really."

Something I said in the past.

Thinking back, regrets surface.

Those words aren't real at all.

Just words for comfort for that person.

While lies for myself.

If only I'm not so defensive.

I'm a love song listener.

Signed Haohan

Loses.

2008-12-19T13:29:00.002+08:00

In today's society, power controls everything.

However, we're living in a realistic world.

In order to gain something , a sacrifice is needed.

Thus, how much are you willing to sacrifice?

Just to gain that power.

Something, greed takes over the mind.

Swallowing your emotions.

When you realized, it's already too late.

You've lost everything you once had.

Then again, what's important in life?

Amount of money in your pocket?

Or the comfortable lifestyle?

How about knowledge?

What's important might be left out.

Love: Your care for people.

At times, you began to miss people.

Cause they have disappear from your life.

Thus, feeling lonely.

Signed Haohan

Onlooker.

2008-12-17T01:29:00.002+08:00

Again, watching a real-life romantic movie.

Friends, falling in love.

Entering the realm of "attached".

Creating another world of their own.

However, never did I entered once.

Not knowing how it feels and looks.

Never experience its sweetness.

Again, cupid did a excellent job.

Pairing up a couple for love.

Yet, never did it for me.

Falling into sadness, the depth of sorrows.

Dying under its arrows of love.

When sweetness turns bitter.

Never would you try again.

Signed Haohan

Winter.

2008-12-16T00:52:00.002+08:00

Winter; A season of loneliness.

As Singaporeans, we didn't know why.

We never had snow here.

It's all summer and sunshine.

Everyone seemed to enjoy the snow.

However, that's just television.

Experiencing it had enlighten the truth.

As cold wind blow on your eyes.

Unnoticeably, tears began to roll down.

The feeling of loneliness came instantly.

Crying without any reasons.

Signed Haohan

9 Days.

2008-12-10T00:51:00.003+08:00

A question was leaved on departure.
"Do I over-cared everyone?"
Then, feeling extremely emotional.
Uncontrolled, it slip through.
Thus, making an effort to ask.
However, not expecting answer then.
A question of controversy isn't easy.
Thus, giving nine days to think.

On the other hand, unprepared.
The answer could be anything.
From one word of Yes&No,
To a thousand-words picture.
No matter what the answer might be,
Accepting it, is the only way.

That song is nice.
Signed Haohan

Better.

2008-12-06T02:58:00.002+08:00

Today, the first day of holiday.

Definitely, trying to feel better.

Being optimistic, going out to town.

Realistically, knowing current status.

Understanding current financial situation.

Thus, not to buy anything.

Life comes before fun.

Somehow, the feeling was different.

Previous, going town was enjoyable.

Shopping, or just looking, was entertaining.

Catching up with the latest fashion.

Dressing into nice clothing.

However, these doesn't matter now.

Now, the street seemed busy.

In contrary, its loneliness was felt.

Despite having crowds gathering,

There's an emptiness felt within.

Much visible if you're a disable.

Deaf, Mute and Colour-blind.

My life had been so complicated.

With so much happenings in the past.

Many times, wishing paces would slow down.

Sitting down at a cafe along the street.

Table filled with sketches of cities.

Laptop, picturing images of people's emotion.

Drinking that bitter yet sweet-feeling coffee.

Watching the ever-busy crowd go pass.

True, pace don't stop in a snap.

Now, nothing's happening in my life.

Just flipping through those theories.

Memories it text by text.

Not learning anything at all.

Missing someone you love so much,

A halfway through knife at the heart.

Taking out and stabbing in,

Both way hurts so much.

Signed Haohan

Tears.

2008-12-05T03:37:00.004+08:00

After (not) much suffering,

The MST is finally ended.

Celebrated with a BBQ.

Despite it planned to be class BBQ,

However, a handful chose not to.

Someone asked, "Plan a class outing?"

The answer , "No, I don't do well with my class."

There're troubling things happening.

True, many were made by myself.

However, I believe those couldn't be ignored.

My care for my friends,

Never seemed to stop.

Sleeping is the best thing to do.

Making me yawn time and again.

Not because I'm tired from a day's work,

Because I could finally teared.

Forgive my stubborn love.

Signed Haohan

Quotes.

2008-12-03T16:09:00.005+08:00

If we can love someone so much,

How will we be able to handle it,

The one day when we're separated.

If being separated is a part of life,

And you know about separation well,

Is it possible that we can love someone,

Never be afraid of losing them?

At the same time, also wondering,

Can we live our entire life,

Without loving anyone at all?

That's my loneliness.

Quote from a movie.

Signed Haohan

Disturb.

2008-12-03T01:58:00.005+08:00

Maybe fate is challenging my life.

Never did I had exam in peace.

There's always something bothering.

True, studies do come first.

Thus, ignoring those worries.

However, they seemed to pile up.

Piling up till I couldn't handle.

Again, falling into their hands.

Loneliness had got hold of the strings.

The feeling is gotten worst.

Much worst than the other time.

It's murderous, pure malevolent.

If only people I miss are easy to forget.

Nope, they aren't.

They seemed to be the last thing to forget.

Classified as unforgettable.

Love stories aren't for me to cry.

Is for me to smile.

Signed Haohan

Obvious.

2008-12-01T01:01:00.002+08:00

After every gathering, it feels weird.

Feelings of missing them bubbles up.

Despite meeting them two days ago.

Meeting up again feels weirder.

Knowing each other met up recently.

However, it doesn't feel like it.

Two days seems like two months.

If only we're like we were.

Seeing each other every day.

Never missed a happening.

Every moment includes you & them.

Yet, we know we need to move on.

As times change, catching up seemed difficult.

True, feeling missed out.

Just a few months, things happened.

People falling in love with their beloved.

Dying of relatives, visiting of wakes.

Family problems raging up.

Failing in examination, thus retaining.

Nope, things don't go as smoothly.

We know things happened.

Also, it could be changed.

However, feelings gotten worst.

Knowing your presence could help.

Yet, you're just not around.

Yes, if only you predict & teleport.

If only they're not so obvious in life.

The few who remembered greetings.

Signed Haohan

Sympathy.

2008-11-30T11:59:00.004+08:00

"To our deepest regrets, ..."

I believe many received such phrase.

However, it sends two messages.

Sympathy & Sarcasm.

Attempt to comfort us with words.

Fake tears from those words.

Trying hard to gain your... forgiveness?

Just be the evil guy.

"Nope, you're rejected cause you suck..."

Imagine those who gave such words.

Making it sounded as if is inevitable.

Or someone force them.

The person who's pulling the strings.

Saying there's knots, thus unable to control.

Damn rubbish, especially companies.

Again, my life hover around BBQ.

It had been realised, peeps love it.

Those cancerous food doesn't bored us.

Tasting ever-delicious despite raw & tasteless.

Never complaint about ashes and heat.

Cause, we're gathering.

All thanks to Moley, everyone's interact.

Playing those time-killing camp games.

Despite it might be stupid, everyone enjoyed.

At least, everyone is catching up.

That's the life we want.

Signed Haohan

Chances.

2008-11-27T02:29:00.002+08:00

Recalling those fantasy fairy tale.

One became rather significant.

Aladdin, the genie in the lamp.

Just by rubbing it, you get wishes.

To be exact, is three wishes.

Greediness makes you want more.

"Give me another three more wishes!"

However, what if you're evil?

Wishes are chances.

In which, malevolent acts are forgiven.

You're wishing, he's granting.

Just remember his favorite phrase.

"Your wish is my command."

Speed of time is difficult to gauge.

Its movement, always versatile.

In a flash, 2008 is coming to an end.

Figuring that not much was done.

My life in Poly. was not happening.

In contrary, I've been studying all day.

Having only three things in mind:

Power, Money, Fame.

Signed Haohan

Melody.

2008-11-25T09:55:00.002+08:00

Music definitely blend into our lives.

Without it, something would felt amiss.

Listening to those tracks day & night.

Each time it brings out a different emotion.

每一次听都会伤心一次。

Signed Haohan

Relief.

2008-11-25T09:51:00.002+08:00

Finally, a sigh of relief.

A declined card email was received.

Confirming that no money was owned.

Just imagine owning the bank $50+.

It could just become a disaster.

Signed Haohan

Dumbo.

2008-11-23T03:22:00.003+08:00

I'm kind of in a situation.

Never tried online shopping before.

Curiosity strikes, I tired by Debit Card.

Well, it is empty anyway.

However, what if it became negative?

Gosh, I owe the bank money?

It better just declined my card.

Else, I'm doom for some time.

They don't have a cancel order option.

Kind of worrying for me.

Signed Haohan

Aging.

2008-11-22T01:33:00.003+08:00

There's times when photos are nostalgic.

It could be today for some.

Seeing photos from the past.

Reminding about those childhood.

Everyone's so young and innocent.

Nothing holding us back.

No grudges, no ambition.

A feeling which words can't comprehend.

A picture says a thousand words.

Indeed, showing more than naked eyes sees.

With two, it defines everything.

A boy sitting on the beach.

Somethings, wondering about the world.

Unable to understand some situations.

Just two years after, everything changed.

You could just feel it.

A sudden blast of maturity from within.

Being understanding towards many things.

A much more brilliant smile then before.

Don't you see it, and feel it?

It's Wee Liang.

Promises are to be heard and forget.

Signed Haohan

(I'M)Possible.

2008-11-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

Light commonly defines hope.

While dark means doomsday.

Then, what's grey?

Believing life started bright.

Ended much darker then before.

We're now in the grey region.

Grey's the worst situation.

Neither getting much hopes.

Nor knowing when's doom.

Kindda stuck in the flow.

That's when you control life.

Signed Haohan

Missing.

2008-11-13T23:31:00.004+08:00

Vanished from the surface of Earth.

Haven't been going for school.

All thanks to The Illness: Stomach Flu.

Causing vomit to happen after 12.

Throwing out more than 8 times.

Stomach's totally empty after.

Feeling of being murdered from within.

Assassin invisible from sight.

While kids rejoicing for holidays.

Poly. students are mugging for Test.

There's this unbalance in atmosphere.

People celebrating, another glooming.

Burying their faces into ugly stacks.

When would this situation end.

Like, decades later?

Times moves at different pace.

It depends on your mind.

Optimistic minds will see days flash.

Pessimistic minds see days claw by.

Some, just want time to stop.

For that few minutes.

Everything's enjoyable.

Signed Haohan

Changed.

2008-11-09T15:29:00.002+08:00

Suppose, people changed.

However, there's 2 types of change.

For the better & for the worst.

Those around my age, is for maturity.

It's difficult to gauge the degree of maturity.

As, no one ever sets a level for it.

That's when your feelings take over.

Some changed due to regrets.

Having those "If only I had..."

Therefore, trying hard to change.

In order to have their desires fulfilled.

That ideal lifestyle they want now.

There are those which never change.

Wanting that nostalgic moments again.

Never wish to put those behind.

Thinking the new is the worst.

We might call these childish.

I miss those days of insanity.

Yet, want something refreshing.

Signed Haohan

Undeniable.

2008-11-08T03:12:00.005+08:00

Pardon that horrible lighting.
Eng Tai just gotten older.

However, his looks just gotten better.

That sunshine boy smile.

It's undeniable that he typically cute.

Even for straight guys, he's okay looking.

Despite for his pettiness in everything.

Damn, I'm so jealous that I sounded gay.

Something had been puzzling.

Bing Yang never knew his expression.

The main reason why he's shot so many times.

After today's experience, I figured it out.

His expression is totally natural.

My GEMS is indeed demanding.

Trying my best to get some photos.

True, good shots come rare.

Have been dying for that few shots.

Yet, all I got was "cool" dead insects.

They were my dead models.

The dead photographer.

Signed Haohan

Glamourous

2008-11-06T02:39:00.002+08:00

Traumatized by certain fact.

How could this be happening?!

"He has good personality."

Gosh, can't believe someone said that.

He could just topped evil charts.

In any case, just let him be.

Can't blame him for being malevolent.

It is his nature.

On the other hand, another's not.

She's one of the beauty I've saw.

We'll vote of course.

Believing there's definitely better pictures.

At least, she's not evil.

Neither is she bimbotic nor slutty.

Recently, I've been on something.

Borrowing several Photography magazines.

Learning Photoshop techniques.

Self-taking pictures.

Seeing tutorials and tips.

Experimenting effects.

It gets me away from boredom.

Definitely wouldn't become hobby.

Cause, it is expensive.

School life's haven't been relaxing.

Totally stress off by lessons.

Especially when lecturers are figureheads.

Reading directly off the power point.

Everyone could read.

Making as if we're in pronunciation classes.

Yahs, "Adwance" is totally cool.

"NOT gay, AND gay"

So, are you gay, Mr. Lecturer?

Stalls' school been awesome.

Finally, getting a thumb-drive.

Just for $19.90 and 4GB's on my hand.

Follow up of sudden craze was camera tee.

Kindda nice, maybe after I gotten my Black shorts.

Again, shit, is 3am

Signed Haohan

Ignorant.

2008-11-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

Confession: I'm a stubborn kid.

Stubborn kids' hard to change.

Like why people procrastinate.

Cause there's always time.

Till time runs out.

That's the overall spoiler.

Halloween was just yesterday.

Despite it's a neighborhood get-together,

It's also a murderer's opportunity.

Truth: Kids get killed during Halloween.

There's even town banning Trick or Treat.

All for the reason of security.

Pity those kids who miss Trick or Treat.

On the other hand, I'm worst.

Didn't have the habit of celebrating.

Just living it like normal days.

Having "Tomorrow's better" philosophy.

Went for dips this time.

Yet, still feeling stressful & hectic.

As if Spa or Jacuzzi is gonna help.

The wish is set.

Signed Haohan

Ignored.

2008-10-31T02:20:00.002+08:00

Incredible situation happening.

What kindda approach to me.

I'm what? Invisible?

Seriously, he's crazy.

He's so gonna get scolded.

Messing with the wrong guys.

Signed Haohan

Assignment.

2008-10-30T03:40:00.002+08:00

School's hadn't been any better.

More crap. More rubbish.

Filled with crap and rubbish.

Nothing's happening in class.

No relationship to bitch about.

"He's like a bastard with that slut"

Perfect adultery match.

Without girls with bimbotic attitude.

Or guys with stupidity illness.

Worst than days doing documents.

Assignments' driving crazily.

I'm seriously practical disable.

While theoretically, madness.

What's worst with CADD.

An awfully shameless hag.

Giving retarded expressions.

GEMS aren't any better.

Lecturer rushing in and out.

Workaholic award to them.

All assignments deadline's closing.

Week 5, week to die.

Incomplete projects & reports.

Why DI needs self taken pictures?

It's gonna be shit.

I'm NOT good in photography.

Throw some pictures.

Hopefully, it will work out.

School's library interesting.

Magazines are great.

Goodness, there is "Practical Photography"

Life-saver for time being.

At least it gives tips.

Alright, is 4am.

Signed Haohan

Blank.

2008-10-26T01:36:00.002+08:00

It's getting rather difficult.

Lacking of topics.

Life just revolved around money.

Economy crisis & Inflation.

Shrinking my wallet's size.

Deepening my depression.

Will it recover?

Or will Nasi Lemak cost $10?

Signed Haohan

O.M.G.

2008-10-23T00:50:00.003+08:00

Still, photography isn't me.

Can't seemed to take artistic pictures.

Just some ugly nonsense.

A blank photography.

Even foolscap looks better.

However, we're humans.

Blaming on other things.

Lets blame on the camera.

Lousy, old & more lousy.

Rarely, I do typography.

Again, wasn't great at it.

Feeling extremely language disabled.

Typing typical nursery rhythms.

Time. Blame on it.

More time to practice & read.

Please, don't hide away from me.

Signed Haohan

Phobia.

2008-10-18T21:46:00.002+08:00

"Why so dao? Say hello!"

I believe many said that.

True, I tend to ignore people.

Especially classmates.

However, I can't help it.

Saying hello is scary to me.

Afraid of awkward situations.

Or being Hi/Bye.

Sometimes, it just drag on.

It's like a phobia.

Signed Haohan

Travelled.

2008-10-18T03:07:00.002+08:00

Again, watching romance movies.

Despite not being teary,

It did hit that emotion spot.

Incredible story line.

Accompany with slight sadness.

A twist in fate & change in time.

However, I'm quite impressed.

Glass lake house, amazingly built.

An unique hideout from reality.

True enough, I've been emotional.

Signed Haohan

Regrets.

2008-10-17T03:06:00.002+08:00

Never been environmental friendly.

Didn't bother where rubbish ends.

Positively littering unnoticed.

However, later did I realise.

Some animal wasn't murdered.

They suicided because of it.

Feeling extremely guilty.

Eventually, the whale died.

With trash stuck in intestine.

Just imagine those were mine.

Bottles & bags from BBQ parties.

p.s. i'm requested to blog.

Seriously, christmas movies are great.

Especially love stories.

It's just so teary about it.

Wouldn't mind watching 5 consecutively.

Bringing my soul into fantasy.

Signed Haohan

Notebook.

2008-10-16T02:21:00.004+08:00

GEMS was totally interesting.

Bringing a new phase to life.

No more wires or voltage.

Away with the calculations.

I'm in Digital Imaging.

Finally, something new.

It's been months I felt that.

Learning something from scratch.

Puzzling, I began interacting with cameras.

Despite it might just be introduction.

However, lots of questions began stirring.

"Why can't my cameras achieve that?"

Engrossing into instruction booklets.

Discovering my stupidity.

No activating function, no effects.

Simple, yet, I'm just stubborn.

However, humans are greedy.

Definitely, my hands welcome DSLR.

Allowing my artistic view to improve.

Bringing it into the next level.

Another step closer to being all-rounder.

If you're just wondering.

"Is Digital Imaging, not Photography!"

You're right, you're not the first.

But, sadly, pictures come from ourselves.

A good pictures tend to be easy.

So, is a bit of both.

What's bothering me was assignment.

Taking photographs about my life.

Well, don't scold me.

You might be my model.

Just be yourself.

Cameras are idiotic.

Signed Haohan

Falling.

2008-10-15T03:23:00.003+08:00

Chancing upon a particular DVD.

Titled, "The Holiday"

Didn't expect much from it.

Just an ordinary love movie.

With kissing and its fantasy romance.

"Never judge a book by its cover"

Phrases seemed awfully true.

I'm overwhelm by it.

Didn't bored me watching twice.

Maybe, it distracts me from reality.

What could an amazing love story do?

It agitates me for more.

Surfing through the net.

Hoping more movies of such.

Seriously, in dreamland.

Signed Haohan

Forget.

2008-10-14T01:37:00.002+08:00

Did you ever felt this.

At times of loneliness,

You began to recall.

Flashbacks flashing through.

Nostalgic memories surfacing.

Someone appeared in your mind.

Distracting your every motion.

How I wish that person would just die.

Die in a day, natural death.

Eventually, I would forget faster.

Never to think that person is around.

Signed Haohan

School.

2008-10-12T23:20:00.002+08:00

Incredible, school's starting.

After 2 months of fermenting.

Mood for school didn't decrease.

Awaiting for more idiotic events.

Lecturers murmuring to themselves.

Gaming noises from the back.

Re-experiencing school again.

Shit, is about a month away.

Signed Haohan

Blurred.

2008-10-10T01:42:00.002+08:00

Before torturous holidays ends.

Finally, a dip into pools.

Haven't been in for months.

However, I dirtied my eyes.

Vision had been very blurred.

Didn't have good experience with goggles.

Therefore, swimming bare eyes.

But is worth the sacrifice.

It's coming, I hate it.

Signed Haohan

Toys.

2008-10-07T02:07:00.003+08:00

Toys, a child's asset.

It never stops their attention.

Keeping them entertained till night.

Maybe even past midnight.

Causing sleepless nights.

I'm sure everyone had fun with them.

Cause they make you smile.

Having this weird urge.

Urge to get hold of Digimon.

That ancient toy.

So old, that it's 10 years ago.

Something, which boys craved.

Attempting codes, obtaining "power".

Battling among each other.

It's just so cool then.

However, toys are entertainers.

They get abandon soon after.

Entertaining you till bored.

That doesn't stopped you.

You continued with another.

The old ones just got put aside.

Never to be touched again.

Memories are for us to remember.

Bringing back the nostalgic feeling.

The times which you were naive.

Nothing in this world bothers you.

No stress, just fun.

You lived to play, everyday.

Signed Haohan

Colours.

2008-10-02T00:02:00.002+08:00

Holidays' are ending.

However, shopping urge isn't.

Craving for coloured tees.

Blue, Red, Yellow, Green, Orange.

Kiddy colours looks nice.

Loving them like manic.

Buy me Bright Blue!

Signed Haohan